I offered my friendship to someone a few weeks ago. That sounds sort of silly to say... but I let it be known that I'd like to get to know them better -- and left it in their court.
Which they... walked away from.
It's not that they said "No way, why would I want to be friends with you?" They just simply digitally left me hanging.
Of course that stung a little. The message was "No thank you. You're not someone I want to know." But... over Lent this year, I dove a lot into my need to people please, my need to have everyone like me. And when Lent was over, what I was left with was a new mantra for myself in those situations where I feel less-than and that I need to change myself to please someone else.
It is simply this: "You have lots of people who love you just as you are. It's okay if there is someone who doesn't."
So, that's what I said to myself... and I was fine. I just let it go. Why chase someone who doesn't want to know you?
This week, that same person sought me out and I thought, "Well, maybe I was wrong? Maybe they do want to get to know me?" So I was friendly, or at least I hope I was... and I tried to continue the conversation they started. And again, they just walked away.
So, I tell myself again, "It's okay if there is someone who doesn't like you."
And I am fine. Honestly, I am.
At this point, I'm probably more irritated by the whole thing than anything. I'm too busy to play games. Like me. Don't like me. It's fine... but don't play with me. I'm worth more respect than that.