Wednesday, April 17, 2019

Covenant with Myself

I decided that I need to practice cHesed with myself. It's a covenantal promise to act in the other's best interest, and I haven't been doing that for myself. My impulses toward people pleasing, toward feeling good in the moment, toward never wanting to treat anyone unfairly - while not all negative desires - have led me to treat myself in ways that were unfair and unhealthy.

I had a member who spoke this week about realizing that the choices she was making were not just unhealthy - but they were choices that were actively hurting her.

And I think that's where I've been. I've been making choices that have been actively hurtful to myself.

That's stopping.

Sunday, April 7, 2019

Target Etiquette!

I was at Target the other day with one of my girls.

We rolled up to a free checkstand and started to put the items in our cart onto the moving belt. The girl manning the cash register said something to the effect of "Hi, how are you?"

I chirped a "Hi" back, and she leaned over and gushed in earnest, "Can I just say Thank you?  Thank you for being so nice... everyone's been so grumpy today!"

We chattered back and forth while the transaction completed... but as we walked back to the car, I marvelled, "Seriously.  How bad must people have been to that girl for 'Hi' to seem amazingly nice??"

Y'all... be nice to the checkers!