Saturday, April 4, 2015

A Crisis of Faith: Part 1

The worst part about a faith crisis isn't that you've had one or that you're going through one.


It isn't the questions.
It isn't the changes.
It isn't the unsurety.
It isn't the doubt.
It isn't the searching.


The worst part about a faith crisis is doing it alone. It's worrying about what people would think of you if they knew that you're struggling or that you're questioning. It's worrying that they would mistake your questioning for something it isn't or that they would make assumptions about you... that they would judge you for your thoughts.

So you don't tell anyone... and you do it alone... and you withdraw. Because if they knew... well, you don't know what would happen.  And so you do it safe and you do it alone...  And that's very lonely.

Part of me says that Easter is a terrible time to admit to a faith crisis. Why would you mar the celebration of that day with such a thing?

But then, part of me says, "This is exactly when you talk about it." And maybe that's the part who's right.

2 comments:

  1. You know, it's one of the reasons why I love the Psalms. I love the honesty expressed in anger and hurt and uncertainty. And I love that God is big enough to handle all of our doubts, all of our questions, all of it. The truth is that you're not alone. Ever. I'm so glad that you shared this.

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  2. Seems to me that if Easter is when the crisis is happening, that's the perfect time to share it. Thanks for your honesty.

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