All this said about trying to become someone who cares less what people think... I mean, it's good. Caring too much about what people who aren't even important to me think of me isn't a healthy thing. I want to learn to let that consume me less. And I feel like I'm making important strides toward that.
But the truth is that I'm never going to become someone who just doesn't care what anyone thinks about anything.
I'm always going to care. I'm always going to be the person that feels perhaps a little too much. But honestly, I don't want to become not that person. It's a part of who I am, and it's not something I'm ashamed of being.
I'm always going to care... but I think that I can learn to care in a way that is healthier for me.
I think I'm going to let a friendship go. It's been rocky for awhile... unbalanced, not honest. I've always been the one to fix it.... the one to say I'm sorry and I'm willing to try again. I've always been the one that cares. But I don't think that's going to be me this time.
And that's not to say that I wouldn't be willing to try again... But I'm not going to chase it to fix it.
Probably, that will mean it's over. And... I care.