Life is hard.
Life is easier when we fill it with friendship and relationship. We put a lot of rules on that sometimes... a lot of boundaries, a lot of definitions. We think it has to look a certain way in order to count or in order to matter. We believe the books we've read and the stories we've been told.
But I think that most of friendship is just showing up. When it's easy, when it's hard... just show up. You don't have to know what to say. You don't have to say the perfect things. You just have to care enough to be there... for the good parts and the bad parts and the hard parts and the easy parts.
Keep showing up.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not very good at this... and I'm ashamed of that. I have a husband and a home and three children. Cars to take care of, a body I'm trying to beat into submission, and demons I'm attempting to best. Every once in a while, I take stock and realize that I've gotten myself so buy, running around after everything, that I've forgotten to show up for the people I care about. And that's not okay with me.
I want to show up. I want to be better about showing up... so I'm trying. Maybe not with great success, but I'm trying.