In the middle of it, the person that the jealousy often revolved around got sick. Really sick. Scary sick. And yet, the jealousies and the in-fighting continued over who was most important. It made me really angry. This person that we claimed to care about was in a hospital bed, unconscious. And the only thing that mattered still was who was #1? No...

I was done with letting those evil emotions rule me. I was done letting them have any sort of control of me, and I turned aside from them. Because they just didn't matter.
There is a saying that goes, "Let go of the past and it will let go of you." Easy to say, hard to do. But... it's also true. I find that I can look back on the people who I'd once been so hurt by, and feel honest sorrow and pity that they are still there. I can offer sincere forgiveness. It doesn't bother me if they think ill of me anymore.
That past doesn't hold me any longer because I made the choice to turn from it. And so, if there is a past that is holding onto you, maybe it's because you are holding onto it. Maybe it's time to stop.
I like to pretend it'snot holding onto me, or vice versa, but truth be told I know I am. Some days i don't even know how to release.
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