Let It Go
In the end, the act of turning around and moving forward is often not an easy one. We have excuses for why we keep looking back. We have reasons for why we keep dragging our baggage with us. While we're in the moment, those reasons and those excuses have great weight and they are hard to resist.
But, they are heavy. They are unhealthy. They keep us from moving forward, and we need to move forward. There comes a time when you simply have to be strong. You have to take a deep breath and you have to let it go. I know the excuses. I know the reasons. But, you have to take a deep breath and let it go anyway.
Sometimes that means you have to take a deep breath and let it go every day. There is something in you that will scream "You can't move on! Go back and pick up that baggage... you need it!!" So, re-letting it go may be necessary. At first, your steps away from what you are leaving behind will be itty-bitty baby steps. But, my friends, every step... no matter how minute... is a step toward healing.
The more baby steps you take, the less "baby"ish they will become. The pull of the baggage will become less and less, and it will become possible to step away from it into the sunshine. There is a remarkable lightness to living free of your baggage, a happiness that I find difficult to describe. It physically feels less heavy, and it seems strange that this should be true of an emotional thing. But, it is.
But, I don't want to sugarcoat this. It's still hard. Getting here is hard. Staying here is hard. It can be frustrating to not ever get past the middle section, or constantly letting things go and then realizing that, without you even being aware of it, you've gone back and picked things up that you thought you had left behind.
I want you to know that you're okay. It is a journey and a struggle, and above all, I understand intimately. And if you want to talk, my email is always open.
Together, maybe we can commit to living fresh and free of the hold our pasts have over us.