Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Out of the Mud

I like to organize.  My books, my clothes, my shoes, my thoughts. Even just this blog is full of days where I have turned thoughts over and over, examined events and relationships and beliefs, stuck somewhere between wanting to move on and not wanting to let go.  And as long as I was figuring it all out, it gave me permission to not do anything. I convinced myself that I shouldn't act until I knew, that it was okay to stay mired in the mud as long as I was still studying it.

I'm done studying it.

I don't have it figured out yet.  There are still things I'd like to know, conversations I'd like to have, confusion I'd like settled, and questions I'd like answered. I still want to know the why's and the how's and the when's. But, you don't have to know the chemical makeup of mud to know that it's... muddy and wet and uncomfortable. You don't have to know when the mud developed to spray yourself off with a hose.

You can just... get out of the mud.  Simple.  Maybe not easy.  But simple.

You can choose not be muddy. You can choose to wash off. You can choose to let go and move on, even if you don't know everything. Even if you don't have it worked out. What does working it out do for you?  Does understanding it really make it easier on your heart?

It's okay not to understand it. But it's not okay to go on forever letting it cover and strangle you.

Get out of the mud... wash off.  Be clean.


4 comments:

  1. There are a lot of why's in life and we may never understand those why's we simply have to trust. But like you said it may not be easy but it is simple. BTW That is one of my favorite quotes!!

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  2. Ah, LOVE this, Jo! Sometimes I get so stuck in the mud that I forget that it doesn't have to be so hard. The reminder that I don't need to have it all figured out is powerful.

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    1. There's a novel called English Passengers that deals with the English occupation of Tasmania (really interesting, actually). Toward the end, there's a passage that talks about how we spend so much time focusing on the negatives of the mud and do so much to get AROUND the mud that we don't just take the easy way and run through it. I really loved that passage.

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